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Books. Fields of green. Gentle sunshine. Full moon. Starry nights. Comfortable company. Hot baths. Sunflowers. Turquoise bays. Walks.

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Run Log

2008:
Saucony PAssion Run 10KM
Great Eastern Women 10KM
SAFRA Singapore Bay Run 10KM
New Balance REAL Run 15KM

2009:
Saucony PAssion Run 15KM
adidas Sundown Marathon 10KM
SAFRA Army Half Marathon 21KM

2010:
Mizuno Mt. Faber 10KM

2011:
Nike Goddess 5KM
New Balance Sundown Marathon 42KM
adidas King of The Road 16.8KM
SAFRA Army Half Marathon 21KM

2012:
SAFRA AVventura

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Art Sans Rulez:
Chocolarts
Avant Gart

Sites & Sounds:
浜崎あゆみオフィシャルサイト
ayu's Youtube Channel
Divine Ayu
FAIL Blog
FAIL Blog Wins
FMyLife

Coast to Coast:
0.5 Bizarre
RVNPs3'o7
RVNPs2'o8
RVCS
NUS X-Country

Cai Tong
Charlene
Charmaine
Chi Ling
Christopher
Eileen
Faraliza
Gary
Hai Wei
Hester
Joshua
Jun Yi
Kaylene
Kheng Chuan
Li Xin
Li Ting
Merwyn
Michelle
Roxanne
Sharman
Tze Hui
Wei Kai
Wei Sheng
Wilson
Winnie
Yan Peng
Yee Jin
Ying Ting
Yujun
Zheng Yang
Zhi Yi

Thoughts

23rd December 2009
Reinvent yourself
a kilometre at a time.

24th December 2009
Handphone socks are the new Cool.

25th December 2009
My dress code reads:
Order from Chaos

28th December 2009
Before learning to sing,
one must learn to listen.

7th March 2010
There is only so thin a line between being distrustful and being possessive

12th March 2010
We're special in a different way
and similar in a special way

15th April 2010
Love offers sanctuary,
not immunity

5th May 2010
Examinations are taken en masse
But we're each of us fighting our own, lone battles

16th June 2010
A small wardrobe leaves room for creativity

8th Oct 2010
Falling down is fine. Not getting back up isn't.

19th Jan 2011
The virtual realms which our dreams sculpt are so real, they leave us in wonder at how powerful the subconscious mind could be

30th Jan 2011
You know it's a good book, when the emotions you experience overcome mental weariness, and you find yourself reading into the wee hours of morn!

15th Mar 2011
Don't just have something to look forward to. Have somebody.

23rd Aug 2011
You can lose your arguments,
but never lose your faith!

21st Sep 2011
Mind over mind, then mind over matter

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Rust / Wednesday, October 19, 2011

I am getting increasingly dissatisfied with my half-baked efforts in doing things -this recent behaviour is clearly reflected in my terrible attendance for cross-country trainings, ever since I got inflicted with shin splints. I have begun to question the degree of my passion for running -is it truly as strong as I make it to be? When I put off my swimming session today just because I didn't "feel" like going, it served as a reaffirmation of how my self-discipline is steeply declining.

These days, when people ask me if I'm in NUS Cross-Country, I hesitate to say "yes". I haven't gone for the trainings for several weeks and I don't think I would consider myself part of the team until I have contributed by participating in some competitions. From all the missed trainings, I feel like I haven't been doing my part in this CCA. Furthermore, given that attendance for every session is not compulsory, it is really up to each individual how much he/she wants to put into it and how much priority to accord to it in the midst of academic duties and social commitments.

Leaving out the shin splints I'd suffered from excessive running due to cross-country training, KOTR, AHM and IFG all coming together in the span of 2 weeks, as well as the strain I'd caused my quadriceps during the RC vertical marathon, one pertinent excuse I'd always allowed myself to have was that I had to meet up with Koh. After all, I only get to meet him once or twice every week! The stress that I had accumulated from my studies makes the meeting all the more important, in how it's the best opportunity for me to relax and take my mind off academic anxieties temporarily.

However, I have been telling myself that this cannot go on. I must give running a higher status. I cannot dedicate myself to it for a while and just slack off again, because then I would never achieve greater speed, strength and stamina. I must commit and maintain and then put in more. Running faster is on my list of wants, and it has always been losing the battle against my want of being with Koh. I'm sorry Koh, but this is a choice that I have thought long and hard in the shower over. And I'm sorry to my family, friends and acquaintainces if I'm not able to spend time with you because of cross-country training.

Still, I will try my best to facilitate the harmonious co-existence of running with my studies and relationships. This has to take place through better time management. So here I go -I have a philo summary due two days later and I need to work on it now. See ya!

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